Last night, I found myself shopping online for facemasks for myself and my littles, & asked, "is this real life right now?". Like, is THIS our new reality? I still can't believe the government has issued stay at home orders & businesses to close down! I STILL can't believe I'm off work & can't use my gifts to lend to someone's personal joy!
I'm combing over memories & past experiences & thinking about how NOTHING I've ever done or seen has prepared me for where I'm at RIGHT NOW, in THIS moment!
I know that lately, over the last 6 months or so, I had been feeling myself shifting. Not sure what even started the shift, but I know it caused me to look at my money, my mental & spiritual health & the people I cling to just a tad bit differently. It made me think long about relationships I chose to be in & the way I relate to others. I don't know how this will change me, but it WILL change me!
I dont think ANYONE was prepared for this kind of situation. I just hope that when it's over, we TRULY find a new normal that places it in our hearts to treat each other better.
