THAT'S STRONG.....

One of the most important things that life has taught me is that I cannot outrun my problems. I have to tackle them HEAD ON (pun intended)!

I can't drink them away. 

I can't smoke them away. 

I can't gamble them away. 

I can't make other people feel bad them away. 

I can't hide them away. 

I can't prescription pill them away. 

I can't kill myself them away. 

I can't cry them away. 

I can't eat them away. 

I can't isolate myself them away. 

I can't sex them away. 

I can't deny them away. 

I can't meditate them away. 

I can't exercise them away.

I can't work them away. 

I can't shop them away. 

I can't play video games them away.

I can't marry them away.

I can't divorce them away. 

I can't ridicule other's problems them away......

        Bottom line, I handle what needs to be handled! I recognize what needs to be done & I do it! Yes, I "suffer" from time to time, but believe me when I tell you that my suffering is short lived. Especially when I pay attention to where the VALUE lies in my life. It's not on money or material things. It's not in my job, my acquisitions, my net worth, my inheritance, my looks, my talents....none of that truly matters. It's the INTANGIBLE.....METAPHYSICAL....SPIRITUAL things that resonate, & above all THE PEOPLE in my life & the relationships I have with them.

         Now everyone I meet isn't going to agree with that & that's okay. They are not FOR me. Another lesson I've had to learn. When values don't align, PROBLEMS CAN occur. A key component to me sleeping at night is not worrying about making people see things from my perspective. What for? These r my crosses to bear! If you agree with my thinking, then I won't HAVE to "put you on" with what I know for me. Because either we fit....or we don't. Bottom line. Just know that if you become a "problem" for me, don't get mad when I don't try to pacify the circumstances by INEBRIATING my thought process or mistreating those I love or wrecking my brain to understand you or make YOU understand me. That's not in my character! However, please know this;

#ItAintNothinForMeToCutYourAssOff

JUST KEEP SWIMMING......

         I'm at a cross road in my life right now & I'm really struggling to stay positive. Sometimes looking ahead, with your CURRENT situation at the forefront of your mind, becomes difficult to master. You tend to just focus on RIGHT NOW.  If you're like me, you WORRY! You worry yourself into a stress panic or an ulcer or a hospital emergency room! You worry that RIGHT NOW is also what's ahead. You worry that your future is not what you had hoped. You worry about bills & your finances & your kids & your relationships...& your health....that your car won't stall or that your check won't be late...that your period shows up on time. You just WORRY all the damned time!!!

        Funny thing is that I'm a prayerful person. I believe in karma & "God's Will". I believe that worry is the spirit of fear & trust me when I tell you how often me and fear have it out!! I have faith; it's why my daughter's name is "Credence"! What I just can't seem to focus my beliefs on right now is the fact that tomorrow is always another chance at WHATEVER "it" is. I'm always speaking this truth myself, as a matter of fact. However, lately, tomorrow always seems to be so far away! I think I need to go to church & get a word in. I'm sure there's a message waiting JUST for me. (& no, this isn't an invitation for u to invite me to YOUR church)

.....Or maybe I need to make an appointment to lay on a couch somewhere! (& no I don't need u to recommend anyone).

#RantOver 

#ImGonnaWatchFindingNemo 

#Uninspired